Loving the paintings and Modigliani's style, I felt inspired to paint how I was feeling. My painting and the figure was inspired my Modigliani - note the long neck and the innocence of the face. This was a memorable moment for it was actually the first time that I had picked up a paintbrush since deciding to become a professional dancer instead of a painter - choosing the High School of Performing Arts over the High School for Music and Art. More on this choice later.
After getting set up with paints and brushes (moving to the side the items for the baby), I began to paint the background into many colors, never really focusing on what I was painting. After looking and reflecting, the blocks of color represented the complications life can bring, and there can be many.
At first I didn’t see much of anything and saw the letter E, which is kind of funny now. The more I looked, however, the image of the fetus/baby appeared. Through art, I had recreated what I had lost and in so doing healed myself. Indeed, I was healed so much so that I left painting and did not return to it for years - 1990.